אֶהְיֶה אֲשֶׁר אֶהְיֶה
When Moses asked God what his name was, this was the response he received. Eyeh asher eyeh, transliterated, meaning “I Am that I Am.” If I were Moses, I’d be a little confused. That sounds all too vague, and at least in the culture I’ve been raised, vague just doesn’t cut it unless people are talking about their sin (they love to be vague about that.) But what God told him had so much depth. When standing before the Creator of the universe he summed himself up in that one phrase, and I believe that sums it up. God is. He is what he is and that encapsulates the entire spanse of his existence.
The entire Bible is an enormous testament to the greatness of God. In it, He is described as powerful, beautiful, wonderful. He is Father, Mother, Lion, Lamb, Resurrected Son, Abused, Beaten, Crucified, Warrior, King, Master. He and his Kingdom are like a treasure buried in the dirt, like an expensice piece of jewelery, and like a mustard seed growing rapidly across the Roman Empire and it only gets stronger when his people are killed. This is God, YHWH, the deliverer who showed his power by becoming the servant of all people. Who displayed LIFE in a gory picture of DEATH.
But who are we?
We are broken and in need of fixing. We are empty without the means to be filled apart from a God who gives good gifts to his children. We are the abusers and the abused, we are those who would much rather take life than give it, who would rather simply make love than die for it! We are a people who have lost our way and broken God’s covenant by the way we all too frequently live, selfish and unmoved. We aren’t worthy of the grace God gave us, but he still gave it.
He still gives it day by day by day, and if we call ourselves too unworthy, then, we finally understand.
The band P.O.D. just released an album yesterday, and on it there was a song called “I Am” that is probably one of their most controversial because of their inclusion of the “F” word. I checked it out for myself to understand what all the fuss was about and what I found was a beautiful portrait of mankind in denial of the God who loved us so much. Written with vivid honesty from the perspective of one without Christ, it showed the different things that humanity is: “I am the murderer, the pervert, sick to the core. I am the unclean dope fiend, I am the whore.” And it continues, painting a grisly picture of humanity’s real problem: It’s own depravity.
I believe it is absolutely necessary to take a good look at the problem so we can understand the solution. I would never endorse staying in the dark for too long, because I know how bad it hurts. I have been there. I have put my faith in myself and I have put no faith in anything, but the truth is that the only thing that is worth putting faith in, the only one who can rescue us from the darkness that threatens to choke us out is Jesus Christ. Only through his sacrifice can we really know life.
I am meets the I Am.
And, as P.O.D. conlcude their song, I will conclude this post by saying this: When we meet Christ and he changes us from the inside out “old things pass away and all becomes new.”
” So from now on we regard no one from a worldly point of view. Though we once regarded Christ in this way, we do so no longer. Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, the new creation has come:The old has gone, the new is here! All this is from God, who reconciled us to himself through Christ and gave us the ministry of reconciliation: that God was reconciling the world to himself in Christ, not counting people’s sins against them. And he has committed to us the message of reconciliation. We are therefore Christ’s ambassadors, as though God were making his appeal through us. We implore you on Christ’s behalf: Be reconciled to God. God made him who had no sin to be sin for us, so that in him we might become the righteousness of God. ” (2 Corinthians 5:16-21)